I have a story to tell. I didn't tell anyone about this. Promise me when you read this, you'll keep it with yourself only. Okay? Okay.
Life on Earth is hard to explain. Nobody knows what life brings us. We don't know what will happen in the next seconds, minutes or hours. Sometimes we create decisions that we regret in the future. We're just humans, we create mistakes. We meet people along our journey that could help or challenge us. Each day is a survival. No, each millisecond is a survival. We are all challenge and we need to overcome whatever challenges we encounter. Anyway, let me begin my story.
My life is just an ordinary life. Like any other normal teenagers, I go to school, eat, drink, laugh and dream. I used to be happy. Yes, used to. Imagine, I have a happy family, I eat more than 3 times a day, I have a lot of friends and get good grades. But that was before. Before I created a major mistake.
I'm in the middle of choosing where to study in college when I was encouraged by a friend to take the UPCAT. I admit it, I was encouraged without any second thought. He's special to me and I felt special when he chatted me on facebook just to encourage me. I was excited taking that exam. I always brought the form in school because I didn't want it away from me. Fast forward, I pass the exam but not to his campus. That's the point when I had my second thought of studying in UP. I took other entrance exams. I considered the other schools and rejected UP. Until one day, I happened to comment on someone's post about UPCAT. And someone commented back. He added me on facebook and we became friends immediately. He encouraged me to consider studying in UP. And that's it! I just found myself entering the portals of University of the Philippines.
I regret that decision. I regret that I didn't follow my heart and chose want others think is best for me. It's not that I don't like it here. This school is amazing. Only that I don't fit in. Now I felt alone. That person who encouraged me to study in this university left me behind. Those friends I found during the first semester are not in my side now. My boardmate who's also my classmate left the university. I'm afraid to go back to that campus now. I'm afraid I might be alone. I'm afraid to meet the person who's been the reason of this loneliness. I can't transfer to other universities because it would be hard for my parents.
I hate this feelings. I hate this fear. :(
