“I’ve always been the kind of girl
who hid my face. So afraid to tell the world what I’ve got to say. But I have
this dream, right inside of me. I gotta let it show, it’s time to let you
know…”
I’m listening to my favorite song
all over again. The lyrics really describe me. It fathoms the deepest part of
my heart. I’m not the girl everyone wants. But at least, I am who I am.
It was
19th of March 1997 when I came out to this world. My mother said, I
seemed to enjoy staying in her womb because it took 12 hours before I came out.
But when she saw me flesh and bone, the 12 hours of suffering seems to
disappear.
I grow
up in the province where life is as simple as counting 1, 2, and 3. I live with
my very big family. And this whole page is not enough to mention all their
names. We live in the same community where we share each others' happiness and
sadness. I can give up everything I have in this world, but never my family.
I eat what province people usually
eat. We don’t buy our foods in the supermarket; we just go out from the house
and pick whatever vegetables or fruits we want to eat. Few steps away from our
house are shore where we can also find foods. For these reasons, my favorite
foods are sea urchins or also known as “salwaki” for the Bisaya and all kinds
of root crops like kamote, ube and kamoteng kahoy. The only foods I hate are
raisins. I find it so disgusting.
As my
existence on Earth gets longer, my dreams also get wider. I dream to become the
first Filipina that will live on Mars. I want to travel the whole world
including the outer space. I also want to marry a Prince someday for I believe
that I am a Princess. But what I dream the most is to become the chief justice
of the Supreme Court. My dreams are quite hard to reach. But when I believe in
myself, I know these dreams will turn into reality.
We
can’t deny the fact that we don’t live alone in this world. We have to deal
with people with different personalities. I’m only nice to the person who is
nice to me. I consider someone a friend
when he or she makes me laugh. I actually hate people who choose their friends
by just looking at their physical appearance. I give my smile to everyone I
meet in my way. We meet different people on our lives. Others will make you
feel special and others will make you feel worthless. But each one of them
plays a role in the drama of our lives.
I hate
being alone. I always want to have a companion wherever I go. I write my
feelings when I can’t handle things anymore. It’s my way of releasing my bursting
feelings. Passing UPCAT is my biggest achievement so far. I’m not smart that’s
why it took days before the news sink in my mind. I believe in God most. I may
not see His physical appearance, but I can feel Him deep in my heart.
I’m not
the type of girl-next-door that everyone wants. I’m not like the other girls in
the campus that catch everyone’s attention whenever and wherever they are. I
don’t have talents that will make others admire me. I mostly wear boyish
clothes and I don’t wear make ups. I’m just a normal teenager who dreams a lot.
I don’t have the beauty and the talent but I have family and friends. I may not
get everyone’s attention but I have God’s undying love. I am unique because I
am who I am.
Now, I
am in the place I’ve never been to. A place where everyone is a stranger. I am
away from my family, from the province where I grow, far away from my home. My
next journey has just begun. I will make it sure it will lead me to a place I
can call achievements and opportunities.
I got to hold on to it till it's mine forevermore.
“This
is me, this is real, I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be now. Gotta let the
light shine on me. Now I found who I am, there’s no way to hold it in. No more
hiding who I wanna be. This is me…”
The
song is done and I found myself asleep under my dreams.
Let's go together sa Mars, Joyce! ahaha
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