Alone

"Mom, I want to transfer to another school."

Those were the words I said to my mom few hours ago. I earned all the guts to utter those words. I set aside all the possible effects of those words. I can't help it anymore. I really don't want to study in UP Cebu anymore.

I thought of it a million times already. You see, UP is not really for me. It feels like I don't have the right to study there anymore. Everyone there hates me because of the mistake I made.I already searched for different schools here aside from UP. Guess what, I have a lot of choices. But I still want to study in UP. I want to study in UP Diliman ever since. Apparently, I don't have the brain. :(

"But why?!"

Those were her reply to me. That sad face mom gave me after uttering those words made me feel alone. I thought she would be glad for this decision. But I guess, she's not even happy. I'm so sad right now. That feeling of no one understands you. The person you thought will support you, back out.

I guess, I will remain in this hell for a lot of years. :'(